Mileen Vuition

2011-04-08T13:03:00.001+08:00

Labels : IT"S FRIDAYYY!!

Im so gonna get a Bird Tattoo someday! Doesn't it look nice??? (Y) ..

2MORE DAYS, 2MORE DAYS, 2MORE DAYS TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

SCHOOL!

I cant wait man! SO EXCITED TO SEE MY FRIENDS AGAIN! :D

2011-04-07T21:11:00.003+08:00

Not sure if you still cares but i misses you. I still think of you now & then. I still keep your messages & i still read it at times. IMYSM!
I know i shouldn't had but it's hard cause i think i have already fell deeply. I still shed tears whenever i read those sweet messages you sent, whenever i look at your pictures, the images of you keep popping inside my head, everything. What should i do? What should i do to stop crying? I'm really ............. . I still love you as much as ever. I wish we could turn back time so i can enjoy every moment slowly and wisely.

2011-04-07T17:13:00.003+08:00

Labels : Sometimes I really felt like I'm a fool.. All I want is the truth, not white lies.

To be frank, i'm not sure and do not know what you had heard but it's freaking obvious it's about me. I'm not dumb! I linked the messages you sent before you update those facebook status of yours and poof ! ----> It's about me!

If you are gonna assume it then i seriously got nothing to say. Really. You wanna be disappointed in me, you feel i backstabbed you, you wanna fake smile with me, then let it be. I can't be bothered anymore, really. I don't care anymore, it's none of my business. I'm the bad person here.

I thought you know me well, i thought you understand me but hey! I'm wrong. You don't, so yeah. No point talking anymore. It's useless now. You had already believed in what you heard, so let it be. Don't apologise to me cause you ain't in any fault cause it's your own belief, no one can blame you for that. I got nothing to say to except for bye. Hah! BYE!

Everybody's saying different stuffs, i really don't know who to believe but i guess for now i'm just gonna believe in myself. Because the truth will come to light one day! :) ..

I got many friends! But there is only 2 friends which i really considered them as my real true friends. They are friends that i can lean on, friends that i can share stuffs with, friends whom i know will never backstab me, friends that will never believe in what others say because they understand me well, friends that will be there for me when i need help, friends that will always be there if i'm down. They are more then just best friends to me. They are Huizhu and Lynn! :D

2011-04-06T19:49:00.001+08:00

Labels : Past is a good place to visit, but certainly not a good place to stay.

FUCKING APRIL!

School starting soon and i can't wait! Can't wait to see my friends, i misses them so much! :D

Slacked at triple 8 yesterday along with Yong An and Benjamin. Ate supper and we chit-chatting. We talked a lot and i reached home at 4plus am, i was too tired so i left first. Slept only for a little while as i need to visit my ahgong at the temple. So yeah. Walked around civic center with my parents and here i'm back home.

Actually those above isn't the stuffs that i wanna blog about. Before i even starts to type anything, there are many stuffs inside my head. Stuffs that i wanna blog to express my feelings out but i can't seems to type it down and i don't know why. But perhaps the word "FUCKING APRIL" has summarized everything that i wanna say?

For now all i can say is that i miss it, i miss every moment, i miss everything. I'm smiling and joking to everyone, telling them i'm totally cool about it but deep down i know i'm not. I'm not even a single bit of okay or fine. Everything seems like a dream to me. Everything just stop and changed in a blink of eye. I don't even have enough time to enjoy it, to feel it but end up it's not real, true. Everything's fake, it's meant nothing, it's meaningless, it was all an ~~act~~. It's out of guilt, etc. One thing that hurt me the most and deeply is that word you said ,.............. .............. . I'm crying inside every minute, that kind of pain i wonder who understands.

2011-04-05T20:29:00.003+08:00

Labels : I had never asked for more....

Song - KISS - Because I'm a girl

I just can`t understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes,
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away...

You told me how much you loved me,
And how our love was meant to be.
And I believed in you,
I thought that you would set me free...

You should`ve just told me the truth,
That I wasn`t the girl for you...
Still I didn`t have a clue,
So my heart depended on you...Whoah

Although I’ll say `I hate you` now,
Though I’ll shout and curse you out...
I`ll always have love for you,
Because I am a girl.

Been told a man will leave you cold,
Get sick of you and bored...
I know that it`s no lie,
I gave my all still I just cry.

Never again will I be fooled,
To give my all when nothing`s true...
I won`t be played again,
But I will fall in love again...

You should`ve just told me the truth,
That I wasn`t the girl for you...
Still I didn`t have a clue,
So my heart depended on you...Whoah

Although I’ll say `I hate you` now,
Though I’ll shout and curse you out...
I`ll always have love for you,
Because I am a girl.

I loved you so...
Now you leave me in the cold,
How could this be?
I thought that you`d only love me...

Into the night,
I will pray that you`re all right.
You hurt me so,
I just can`t let you go ---

You took advantage of my
willingness,
To do anything for love.
Now I’m the only one in pain...
Will you please take it all away… Oh

Never thought born being a girl,
How I can love you and be burned...
And now I will build a wall,
To never get torn again.

Although I’ll say `I hate you` now,
Though I’ll shout and curse you out...
I`ll always have love for you,
Because I am a girl.

Although I’ll say `I hate you` now,
Though I’ll shout and curse you out...
I`ll always have love for you,
Because I am… a girl.

2011-04-05T13:55:00.001+08:00

Labels : No one ever gets tired of loving. But everyone gets tired of waiting, assuming, hearing lies and hurting.

This isn't a prank or a joke or something. It's true. Things happened for a reason and all i have to do is to just accept everything with no anger and sadness. I just got to move on. I know it's gonna take some time cause i fell deeply but with all my friends by my side to support me, to cheer me and everything, i believe i'm able to. Fake smile it may be, i really don't care now. All I want is to show the strong me and not the weak one. I don't wish to see anyone worrying about me. I just have to smile at everything and stay on strong with my life.

Thanks to those who sent me texts, call me up, facebook message me or any other ways trying to contact me just to cheer me up. Thanks, really. And to the god brother of mine, thanks for coming down all the way from your area to mine in late night when i was crying on the phone. Thanks for the talk, the cheering, the jokes and everything. I can never thank you enough for all that. Thanks for being there when i'm down. You are really a great brother.

2011-04-04T20:36:00.000+08:00

Labels : It's never the tears that measure the pain, sometimes it's the smile we fake.

As you guessed it, i hasn't been in any mood lately. I don't know what's wrong with me, seriously. Too much thoughts been running inside my head & it's making me tired. When i say tired, i'm not referring to physically tired but rather mentally. Well, i want a stop to this. I wanna start anew, i wanna forget about the pain, the tears, the sadness, the thoughts. I just want the old Mileen back. The one my friend known as the girl who love smiling. So that's my plan. To be happy and stay happy. It's best for everyone plus i don't wish to see all my friends worrying about me. I'm alright now, totally fine :D.

Anyway, see the girl up there in that picture? It's Nana! I miss her! And school's starting so sooon, i can't wait. She's my bestie in my class at ITE. April 11 please come faster! You guys know what? I have already been packing my stuffs for school. Done washing my uniform and everything. I guess i'm just too excited for school :D. Last week of holidays before school starts so i got to meetup with all my friends before everyone starts to be busy! ^^

2011-04-03T18:53:00.002+08:00

Labels : What a boring Sunday!

Not too sure what should i blog but there's totally nothing for me to do now. It's seriously a freaking boring Sunday.

Just had my dinner and i actually just realised that my appetite for food actually decreases as in i can't seems to eat as much as how i used to. Maybe it's because of my constant of not eating anything due to my loss of appetite these few days.

Anyway Smiley Mileen is back! The one that all my friends adore. No more pain, no more tears, no more mixed feelings. Just that happy and cheerful me. The one who can get happy easily over little little things. The one that loves smiling a lot. The one that loves joking around. The one that's always hiding my true self in front of my friends as in i don't usually show out if i'm sad or angry. That's me! :D
Right now i'm waiting. Like since 12plus noon till now. Not sure what's _ doing but i just hope _ will feel much better by now? I'm worried. Feel like calling up but not sure what should i say. sighs!

LASTLY! SCHOOL'S STARTING VERY SOOOON! And i somehow missed the days in WRSS! Its was so fun then compared to ITE life. But still i can't wait for school to starts. Won't be seeing the same classmates as last year. I miss BB class loads! :(

2011-04-02T18:37:00.000+08:00

Labels : ..................................

Been wanting to update my blog but i simply was too lazy but today i just got the urge to blog.

I guess whoever is reading this blog post should have already know what i'm gonna blog about but well i wont be talking to much about it as it will go nowhere. Perhaps just a little of my feelings?

I have been thinking a lot lately. I even think further then usual which is something i never had thought. In this time i should be still laying on my bed either resting or sleeping cause i only slept for like 4hours as i went toning with some friends. While walking alone back home, many thoughts been running inside my mind plus with the feeling of walking under the rain is like so nice. ---> sounds so emo, pfft! lol -.- .
Anyway, i thought of many many thoughts. Some good, some bad, some funny, some sad, some cute while some hurting. Been having mixed feelings as well, don't know how to explain it but it's like i'm angry yet sad, happy yet jealous. So weird.
Because of all these thoughts plus i was tired that a car honked me cause i was nearly hit by it.

(cont)

2011-03-24T20:11:00.000+08:00

Labels : May God bless her!

Well, it's official now. My great grandma just passed away this afternoon. After struggling to survive for like 2days, God has taken her away from this world. I didn't see her for the last time but it's alright i guess?
This few days i'm gonna be busy with the funeral and all. Have to cancel all the outing that was planned earlier, my work as well.

Anyway, i got to rest early today as i will be going down to the funeral tomorrow. Got to pray and all.

"When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure. "

2011-03-21T21:21:00.000+08:00

Labels : Don't look for faults, find remedies! This is the mistake that everybody always make!

Hasnt been blogging for the past few days because i totally doesn't know what to blog but now i'm here to update my blog before it turn rusty once again.

Anyway, these few days i haven't been myself. Many things is going on and i'm kinda like stress up. I try to worry less and limit stress but it not as hard as it seems. I want the old me back. I want the be the girl who is always smiling no matter what, the girl that goes crazy, the girl that my friends love, the girl that who loves making people smile or laugh, the girl who say lame jokes and laughing to myself, the girl that loves playing a fool.
Friends and everyones' been asking me if i'm alright and my answer has always been, "i'm fine i'm fine, Mileen is strong.". But deep down, i know i ain't fine. I ain't strong. I'm just like any other who wants to break down badly and cry loudly but i do not want to. I do not want to break down easily, i do not want to cry loudly simply is because i do not want anyone to be worried about me. So i chose to cried silently.
I really hope things would get better. I'm praying for the better. I may not seems to care, i may seems like i can't be bothered about anything but at the end of the day, everything still comes back to me. I will never stop thinking about it. Urgh! I'm really tired but i'm glad to have my boyfriend. At least i know he will be there for me no matter what happen, his hug, his kiss is like the cure. It somehow makes me felt better. :D

Everything is gonna be better, i just know cause God is by my side ^^.

2011-03-12T02:27:00.002+08:00

Labels : Best friends are people who make your problems their problems, just so you don't have to go through them alone.

Though this matter is sort of settled after you apologised to me but still i wanna blog about it. I wanna talk about my feelings towards this recent matter that had happened between you and me.

Well, all this things started when i heard that you said some things about me behind my back to few people. Do you know how shocked was i when i learn about it?! Damn shock! Why? Because i simply never expect those words to be out from your mouth. Never did i expect it will cause ya know i treated you as one of my good friend. I trusted you and i don't go around telling people bad stuffs about you but yet you did. You know how awfully disappointed i was? You said i don't do anything ever since i started working at TCC when i was staying at Asraf's house? Read properly! "EVER SINCE I STARTED WORKING". Ever since i started working i did helped out with chores. I cooked for them. I bought food for them. I blanja them. I bought cigarettes for Asraf and you claim that i did nothing at all. Yes, i didn't pay any rent simply because my pay doesn't allow me to! With that current pay i used to have, how am i able to give rent? I need money for transport, i need money for break in work, i need money for school, i need money for my own food. Where do i find those money? You thought of that?!

Yes, you said you heard it from Asraf and you were just barely sharing with them and wants Fazilah to come talk to me. My question for you is that, why can't you open your own mouth and tell me? Why can't you ask me yourself? Why must it be Fazilah? Don't give me the craps that cause Fazilah is closer to me. Hey! That's an excuse! You have your own mouth, why depend on other's mouth? Make any sense here?

You said you did not BADMOUTH. You said this isn't call badmouth, then tell me what is it called then? Talking behind one's back, saying not nice stuffs about them is not called badmouth then what is it called? It's actually supposed to be known as BACKSTAB but it sounds too awful that's why i called it BADMOUTH instead of that. Been trying to tell you this, trying to get this in to your head when we were arguing on FaceBook but you don't seems to even understand whatever i am trying to say. It's like talking to some bird brain. No offence. But that is how i felt at that point of moment. I am just trying to be truthful and frank here, so yeah. (: .

Seriously, if you really treated me as your good friend, you would have already came telling me about it and not till i found out about it. You should jolly know i'm ain't that kind of person you shared with them. This simply just tell me that you don't know me well babe. You are just another friend i met on the streets. Those HI BYE kinda friend.

There is a saying, "Once bitten, twice shy". Well, things already happened so i guess we won't be the same as before anymore cause there will still be a crack in our friendship. And since you apologised i shall not go so much into this matter anymore.

But here's an advice for you, never assume that in your point of view you didn't mean it in a bad way or anything. Look at other point of view as well. Stand in their shoes and feel what they will felt if it's you. Think before you speak anything.

You might be reading this blogpost of mine, well, go ahead and read it. I am not afraid of hiding it or anything. You might get pissed off or whatsoever but this are just my feelings. My true feelings.

Blog is where i expressed it so well ..... (Y) ..

Last but not least, i do enjoyed those times we used to spent together, things you had done and everything. I do appreciate it. But those shall be kept as memories. Anyway all the best for your future ahead!

2011-03-09T16:59:00.000+08:00

Labels : .....................

Wondering what's the picture is? Well, it's one of the room in the Spa i'm working in. It's the couple room. Took this picture from my workmate (: .

Yesterday was my first day of work and i earned 87dollars for just doing one full body massage treatment and a normal facial. Not bad huh?
I was actually kinda nervous when doing the treatment cause it's my first time doing on someone i don't know, a customer. I was afraid i might make mistakes, afraid that the customer won't feel relaxing, blah blah blah plus it was tiring cause massage is 1 hour and the facial is 45mins.
Anyway my confident kinda build up when the customer came to me asking for my name after which she told me i did a great job. Well, i didn't kinda expect that cause ya know it's my First time. Not bad for my first day of work, though it was boring at first as there is totally nothing to do at all. I repeat NOTHING. So i just sit around, stare in space, read some food magazines. BUT the moment i get my pay, i was freaking happy la. Got money after hard work, who wont be happy right? So yeah :D.

Gonna work harder. I can do it. And you know what? I got goal in my life now. And that is i want to be a lecturer in ITE in the future. A Beauty Lecturer. How great would that be? To achieve it, i really got to put in a lot of effort. I got to start everything from scratch which means, a therapist :D

2011-03-07T01:34:00.000+08:00

Labels : ..........................

Life is meaningless only if we allow it to be. Each of us has the power to give life meaning, to make our time and our bodies and our words into instruments of love and hope.

2011-03-01T00:11:00.007+08:00

Labels : Everyone can catch my eye, but it only take one special person to catch my heart.

From the first day i know him, from the very beginning of our love story, nothing has stops even though some things have changed from friends to becoming lovers.

Every love story has it's pain, it's sadness, it's joy, it's laughter and it's secrets behind them. These are the things that makes the relationship go on. It makes us grow stronger then before, love deeper then ever and what's most important? Understanding one another. But thus, trusting each other is always the most important and the major thing for any relationships. It is the key to all relationships. It keeps everything go on smoothly.

"He made me love without fear and to trust without any questions."

Well, not everyone is able to find someone whom they can really trust, someone whom they can put their hopes on, someone whom they can fully lean on, someone that will makes you feel comfortable in any ways, someone whom you are so much comfortable in sharing all your stuffs including the most embarrassing thing that had ever happen on you. But he, my boyfriend, made me felt all of that. After many unsuccessful and heartbreaking relationships i have been through, he made me found hope and trust once more. He made me felt important and loved. Something that i had never ever felt so much before.

I might have make him mad at times but still he never fail to forgive me with a warm hug of his. He is the reason why i smile to my phone, he is the reason why i wouldn't sleep at night cause my mind is all about him, he is the reason why i checked my phone each time i wakes up, he is the reason to my everything.

The face i would never get sick no matter how many times i looked at, the warm hug that i would never get enough, the hand that i would never want to let go, the funny funny faces that i seen and love so much, the typos he always has on his messages, all the "new" words i have learned which comes from his own dictionary and the moment when he kept calling me "baby" numerous of times.

I cherish this relationship of ours and i treasure it a lot. So i want the best out of it. I want to be in my best and to do my best in this relationship. My secondary 3 and 4 class motto, "To be the best that you can be".

I really love him with all my heart ♥ .

All the simple little things he done and said to me really means the world to me. It made me felt so happy. And i am not referring to those normal happiness but rather something more to it. Something that is extremely and extraordinary happiness. I don't know how to explain it but it's something very good.

"Sometimes you just need to be with the person who makes you smile even if it means waiting."

I love and enjoy being with him. I love his presence. I love everything about him even his flaws.. I never regretted being with him. Having him as my boyfriend is the best thing that had happen in my life. I can never thank God enough for that. I am glad i have made the right choice being with him, i really do. And i will never question this choice i have made. Never.

"No one is perfect but him? He is perfect for all the imperfections."

This love story of ours is gonna go on and on and it will not have any ending cause we both know that we will always be there for each other no matter what happen.

"Forever and ever" .

HAPPY 2ND MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO MY HANDSOME MONSTER! ♥

I LOVE YOU LOADS HUNN! :D.

2011-02-20T01:49:00.000+08:00

Labels : Live your day wisely..

Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.

-- Ralph Waldo Emerson

2011-02-14T01:24:00.000+08:00

Labels : HAPPPY VALENTINE'S DAY :D

Well, Happy Valentine's Day to everyone! Its the 14of Feb now :D.

I went for movies with my handsome monster earlier on. I wanted to catch The Black Swan but they checked my pass! My birthday has not pass yet so im not officially 18. Which means, i still cant watch it. FARKED! But never mind, i will try at Shaw House cause its aint strict there :D.
Anyway, since i cant watch The Black Swan, we chose The Rite. Its about Demons & Devils. Its a true story so yeah, not bad after all i guess?

Last but not least, dumb me forgotten to pass him the Valentine's gift i bought. I bought a waistband and printed a wallet size picture of both of us laminated. Though its just some simple gift, i hope he will still like it. Buying a gift for a guy is kinda hard man. I think girl's gift is so much easier to get.

Its late already, im going to bed now :D

2011-02-13T14:30:00.000+08:00

Labels : 5 Awesome Girls!

Met up with these girls on Friday! Its was a movie and a dinner date! :D. I really miss those times we used to spent together during our secondary days. Its was really memorable. I cant wait for another outing with this cliques of mine again! <3 ..

This picture is freaking ugly la but still its COOL! :D

2011-02-07T13:16:00.000+08:00

Labels : .......................................

Hmmm, im actually kinda lazy to update my blog but since i got nothing to do, i might as well just update it.

Recently i kinda quarreled with my handsome monster. Well, he's kinda mad at me so he didnt wanna talk to me and yeah, i cried. Couldnt sleep well as i kept thinking about it. Then in the morning, i woke up early to get prepare and cab down to his house. I dont know what i was doing all i know is that i wanna see him & i got a lot of things to tell him. This is actually the first time i ever does that.

I really had loads of things to tell him but i dont know why when i see his face, i kinda become speechless. I waited outside his house for like an hour or so, i was really thinking about many things. The things that i wanna say but turn out i just forgotten everything that i wanted to tell him when i see him. Kinda weird. I tried holding my tears but in the end, i still cried.

But things are alright now :D. We are back to normal! I LOVE MY HANDSOME MONSTER !! (: ..

And fuck! Im kinda having stomachache now. Kept releasing toxins in the toilet. I think its cause i skipped my meals last night. And now i totally got no appetite to eat anything. :/

2011-02-05T00:34:00.000+08:00

Labels : CHINESE NEW YEAR!

2011-01-31T17:18:00.004+08:00

Labels : All about him ♥ ♥ ♥

Tomorrow is the 1st of February which means its my 1st Month Anniversary with my handsome monster. So this post is gonna be all about him. :D

Well, we started out as friends from the same cca, AVA Club. We just started texting each other like almost everyday? Then we had an outing along with another friend, Jie Wen. Our first outing is picnic at East Coast Park. The rest of the outing was movie (harry potter) and so on.

I dont know when i started having feelings for him but i know its when we both became closer, thats when i started to like him.

Then on the 1st Jan, we got together. I was the one who asked & it was the first time i ever asked a guy to be my boyfriend. Jie Wen and Yong Sheng was the match maker on that day. Both of them kept asking me to ask if not im gonna regret. The situation was kinda funny and extremely shy for me. The time we were together was 710am. And it was near my block. :D

He may not be my first boyfriend but he kinda is my first in many things. He is the first guy that i texted long messages with, the first one that i asked for r/s, the first one that loves playing with my tummy, the first one that asked me to lick his finger clean as there is food on it, the first one that sent me a long message on how he felt about me, the first one that i went to school and fetch him, the first one that i had failed trying to surprise him for like 3 or 4 times, the first one that i love looking at when he's sleeping, the first one that always have a lot of funny typos, the first one that sent rubbish which doesnt make any sense when too tired, the first one that i had spent time with on his birthday, the first one that always make me laugh/smile to my phone and people will thought im crazy, the first one that i had couple tee with, the first one that had bought shoes for me,etc.

I love being with him. I love his hug cause he is forever that warm. I love his worries for me. I love everything about him. He may not be a perfect boyfriend, but to me he is more than perfect. He never fail to make to smile everyday. He make time for me. Though he is just an ordinary guy, but whenever i see his face, im happy. He always make me jealous about those 5 girls which make me kinda like hate the 5 girls? . HAHAHA. He behaves like a little kid at times which i really love it. He's sucha pig cause he's able to like sleep at anywhere, anytime? He always leave bits of food on his mouth after eating. He sleeps with his mouth open & eye half close (damn hilarious but i love it a lot). I may be a little weird but i love looking at him when he is sleeping cause that is the only time when i can look at him quietly without him looking at me. Sometimes we may be just sitting next to each other and not talking, but at the end of the day i will still find it the most happy conversation i had cause it is him whom is right there beside me and that is all that matters. Stuck together like glue :D. He treated me very nice, really really very nice. I love him more & more as each day passes. MY CUTE LIL FAT PIG! <3

He promised to hold my hands throughout all the storms & i believe & trust he will cause he never breaks the promise he made.

"He is good, so good. He treats me like how a real man treats his girl. He keeps promises he made though he is not going away."

He is my boyfriend. The one that i love the most. The one that i want to be with forever. He is Ng Ji Huat :D.

Tomorrow is our 1st Monthsary, there will be more coming. I love him :D

2011-01-29T13:36:00.000+08:00

Labels : :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

IM HAPPPYY! IM GOING TO HIGHER NITEC IN BEAUTY AND SPA MANAGEMENT! TOMORROW IS MY LITTLE BROTHER'S 7TH BIRTHDAY AND 1ST FEB IS MY 1ST MONTHSARY! :D

2011-01-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

I AM JEALOUS!!

Interview tomorrow 2pm at School. Im excited for it! I WILL GET IN! IM SO GOING TO HIGHER NITEC FOR BEAUTY THERAPY :D

2011-01-25T20:24:00.000+08:00

Labels : I get rid of toxins in my body everyday cause i shit everyday :)

One day just gonna pass like that, and i didnt do anything today. Its kinda bored but at least Hunn is entertaining me via text although he did fell asleep.

Anyway, im going down to school tomorrow along with Nana to appeal to apply for higher nitec once again. After which, im gonna wait for my handsome monster to end school and we are gonna have dinner! :D.
One day without seeing him & i miss him a lot. :/ ...

Its gonna be 1st Feb soooonn!! I CANT WAIT MAN! IM CRAZY! -.-" ..

2011-01-24T17:06:00.001+08:00

Labels : Never give up! That's the spirit! :D

IM FREAKING HAPPPPYYY NOWWW!!! :D My Mum finally allow me to go up higher nitec! No words can simply explain how i really feels now & i know my handsome monster is happy for me too as well.
This somehow tells me that i should never give up & i didnt but i almost did as i almost lost all my hopes. Words from my friends and my handsome monster brings up my hope once more & im very thankful plus grateful to them :D. THANKS ALOT YEAH? XIE XIE NI! :D...

Anyway i went to school this morning to double check on something and realised my name was not on the list. The moment i know my name wasnt there, my heart became very heavy. Its like im very disappointed on myself and i was like "thats it?!". I really lost all the hope till Ms Goh came and speak to me which somehow makes me felt so much better. Teachers asked me to appeal & apply for it again so that is what im gonna do! Im gonna get in. I know i can cause im MILEEN! :D. Teachers are not blind after all.

2011-01-23T13:59:00.001+08:00

Labels : Be content with what you have; rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, then the whole world belongs to you.

Yesterday had been a great day as i had steamboat with Hun's family as its his grandma's birthday. I bought a Brands Chicken Essence for her as going up empty-handed isnt nice and Hun says that its funny. Is it? Funny it may be but its the effort that counts la. :D.

Its already 23rd Jan and i did not received any calls or anything so its damn obvious that im not selected for higher nitec which is kinda dishearted. All my friends told me to think positive as teachers are not blind but somehow i think they are. Whatever it is, i still have one more chance left. 15 Jan, i can still apply. I just gonna try my luck and see how. If really, it still the same then im going to work. Hunney doesnt want me to work so early but if outcome is not what we expected, then i got no other choice. :/

And i just realize something yesterday, my secondary school cliques all has a boyfriend! :D. Maybe one day we can all have a day out along with our boyfriends :) .

TODAY IS REALLY A BORING SUNDAY! Mum went out to get somethings and i needa babysit my younger siblings so here i am, at home.

2011-01-21T15:26:00.001+08:00

Labels : I got nothing to blog about so let the pictures do the talking :D

2011-01-17T14:45:00.001+08:00

Labels : A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous. :D

I had a great time with Hunnneyy yesterday! Went to have Seoul Garden for dinner, bought the same fox jacket but different colours, bought a couple tee with hun as well.

Hunney is in school now & im currently waiting for his reply. So long :/.. Im already missing him since i reached home last night. But no worries, cause im meeting him tomorrow :D

Anyway, 16 Feb is my graduation day. Its so fast! I kinda miss all the fun i had during my secondary and ITE life. It was the best moments! The laughter i had, the sadness i been through, the craziness i had and most importantly is the people i met. It was really so much fun. :/ .

In a blink of an eye, im turning 18 this year already. I have always been waiting to turn 18 since i was 13 i guess? But now i dont. I wanna be 13 once again! I want to be a young teenager once again! But it will never happen. Who grows younger every year? No one! People only grows older year by year but why no one grows taller? I wanna grow taller. Maybe not so tall but i dont wanna be so short :/...

Im going to buy colour contacts lens later! Wearing it for Chinese New Year :D

2011-01-15T16:12:00.001+08:00

Labels : Sometimes i just simply hates my life.

Sometimes i really do hate my life cause most of the time i dont have a say to anything. I wanted this way/path but i cant choose the way i want to. I tried persuading many times but still im in the losing end. I know its for the family but am i just too young a little? Shouldnt i be concentrating on studies first so that my future would be better? If i study higher, the more job opportunities i would have for the course i studied for and the higher pay i would have cause my theory knowledge plus hands on knowledge is better compared to those who only stopped at Nitec? Isnt it?

What i believed is that as long as i studied hard, my future would be brighter and thats when i would bring in more money to help out in the family and our lives would be much much more better. Isnt it?

I felt so defiant but i got to do what got to do. I just got to take one step at a time i guess. Aye :/ ...

DJ-ING :D

2011-01-08T23:06:00.001+08:00

Labels : A new year with everything started out great! :D

Firstly if you guys doesnt know, i was attached on the 1st Jan 2011 (01012011) with Ng Ji Huat. Nice date uh? HAHAHA. It was Jie Wen and Yong Seng whom bought us together.

They came over to my place for steamboat to celebrate the new year countdown. And on exactly 0710am, we were attached. Everything was so sweet. 8 days being with him already and i have been very happy. I am his first girlfriend (: ...

He is the only guy that really takes the effort to understand me cause no one has ever sent a very long message telling me how he felt about me and he's right at almost everything. He is the only guy that i felt very comfortable being with.

Im gonna be his first and last girlfriend whereas he's gonna be my last boyfriend :D..

Another thing is that im gonna quit TCC soon as i wont be going up higher nitec to continue with my studies but rather find a full time job to help my Dad supports the family as my family needs help. Another 2 years for h.nitec is too long. My Dad wont be able to cope much as there are many many things that ....................... .

Right now im waiting for my teacher to arrange a interview for me at a Hotel Spa which is near Great World City. Pray that i will get the job :D.

And im also quitting HTC too as well. Being a Hp Promoter is really very tiring as i got to stand the whole day till i knock off. I still prefer F&B line.

This is my first time taking a picture with my Dad so close. Ever since im being mature enough, i had never taken any pictures with my Dad in such close position.

Looking at this picture, i realized that my Dad is getting old but yet he is working so hard to support the family :/ ... I really needs to help out..

2010-12-29T02:24:00.001+08:00

Labels : HAPPY AS EVER ... :D

Someone special gave me 3 angels and told me that the middle one is him. How sweet? HAHAHAHA :D

Anyway i was bored so im here to update this blog of mine. Hmmmm, just few more days and there goes 2010! Its really very fast. New year resolution?, i just hope that year 2011 will be much better then 2010. Because in year 2010, many unhappy things had happened. Many unforgettable incidents. Many sadness and pain. Hopefully year 2011 will be better? I just hope so :D

2010-12-24T00:38:00.002+08:00

Labels : FINALLY HERE TO UPDATE THIS RUSTY BLOG OF MINE :D

Finally here to update my blog. It had been quite long ever since i last update. :D

Anyway life has been better for me now. Though it was tough previously but i am lucky to have many friends by my side to help me out especially my best friend. I am LUCKY :D HAHAHAHAHAH!
Currently taking two jobs now. One is at TCC and the other one is HTC promoter. Not that tough cause im able to manage. I NEED MORE CASH CAUSE MY SHOPPING LIST IS GETTING MORE & MORE. I even want a LV BAG NOW! Gonna save up.

2010-11-13T22:45:00.000+08:00

Labels : OUT WITH XUETING ON THE 11NOV2010 TO IKEA AT TAMP :D

2010-11-01T15:36:00.000+08:00

Labels : HALLOWEEN NIGHT WAS FUN! LEARNING HOW TO PLAY POOL IS DOUBLE FUN :D

The Bloody Clown with the knife. I BET CAMIE WILL BE CRY IS SHE SEES THIS...

IGNORE MY STUPID FACE :D

MY FACE IS EXTREMELY STUPID! I CANT SMILE TO THE CAMERA WHEN THE BLOODY CLOWN KEEP STARING AT ME ...

HEHEHEHEHEH! GOTHICDOLL :D

Rest of the pictures are in facebook :D.

2010-10-25T23:41:00.000+08:00

Labels : Past sometimes is a nice place to visit but certainly Not a good place to Stay.

Been busy with work and school nowadays. Seriously freaking tired man! I need a break :( .. Been skipping my meals as well, i wont be surprise if i were to get gastric one day.

I may be going to Night Safari on the 30 Oct with Joleen & her friends. If tickets are not sold out, we are definitely going :D. Cant wait man! CANT WAIT TO VISIT THE HAUNTED HOUSE :D

Working tomorrow as usual which is freaking sian to the max. Kativa has quit so that is sian times 2 -.- ...

My report assignment is still not done yet. My papers are lost so which means i got to re-do all over again. SIAN AGAIN! -.- ....

SOOOOO STRESSSSSS!!!!!!

2010-10-16T15:21:00.000+08:00

Labels : 15OCT2010, Out with illa, wani, asraf & fahmi...

2010-10-02T02:36:00.001+08:00

Went Jalan Raya with Asraf's friends today(1/09/01) & i got 12dollars for 3 houses.. Pictures shall do the talking :D..

REST ARE AT FACEBOOOK :D.. NIGHTS =)

2010-09-26T16:45:00.000+08:00

Currently I'm at rp using joanna's iPhone to blog... Tomorrow is my 17th birthday but I'm not even excited about it cause I know it's gonna be the worst birthday I'm gonna have. It sucks being 17. Forget about it, I'm not gonna think about it. Anw I found a job! Thrusday I'm officially working at Tcc. And another good news is that I'm having holidays now for 2 weeks. Tuesday going jalan raya with my ite friends. I can't wait man!!

2010-09-20T00:19:00.000+08:00

2010-08-31T23:30:00.000+08:00

LET THE PICTURES DO THE TALKING :D

2010-08-15T10:39:00.000+08:00

MY COMP IS SPOILED! SO I WONT BE UPDATING MY BLOG THAT OFTEN :D ...

2010-08-10T22:42:00.000+08:00

Labels : A friend is someone who will bail you out of jail. A best friend is the one sitting beside you saying, 'Damn that was fun..

Shall update a proper post tmrw :D

2010-08-09T21:04:00.001+08:00

Labels : The best friend you can have is one you can sit on the porch with and not say a word, then get up and feel like that was the best conversation you've ever had.....

This picture was taken during National Day Celebration in school. I was doing my AVA Duty at the Auditorium Control Room. The people up there are the ava crew. Some of them wasnt inside the picture as they left early for their Malay prayers.

Anw today i went to Bugis as i want to buy a watch. Thanks Fahmi for terman-ing me there. And he kinda make me felt bad. I didnt expect that he will pay for the watch. Im supposed to pay for it, not him. Make me felt bad once again, aye. :/
After buying the watch, we walk around and i swear i saw many clothes & shoes that i want. I wanna go there shopping one day with Hui Zhu. I miss shopping with her damn much :D.

At around 5pm, we took 960 & bus-ed back to woodlands. The Bus was damn freaking HOT! I cant even feel a lil bit of air-con. Seriously, upgrade the bus please. I was perspiring all the way back to woodlands.

Fahmi sent me home, how nice of him :D...

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Actually Mum last min says wanna go watch Firework but in the end we didnt as all of us are tired & lazy. But still HAPPY NATIONAL DAY(cant believe i actually said that -.- ) !! ....

Many people are really in the mood of National Day as i saw many RED & WHITE today.

Anw, i have changed my blog layout to my previous blogskin. I dont know how long it's gonna last. As long as im not bored of my blogskin, i will change back to the previous one :D .. And lastly tagboard is back. Tag me please people :D ....

Sometimes what you want isn't always what you get, but in the end what you get is so much better than what you wanted

2010-08-09T01:34:00.000+08:00

Hasnt been updating my blog lately as im really busy these few days. :D .. It's now the Hungry Ghost Festival & it's National Day tooo. Both falls on the same day.

Anw, i went to the Temple this afternoon to pay respect to my late grandfather. After which at around 7, my family & i went for NDP dinner which is located beside Woodlands Primary School. I swear, it was bored ! But i saw some WRSS student there. Some were helping out. I also saw some WRSS teachers.

I miss my friends already.. All my friends.. :(

Happy yet sad. Fun yet tired. Funny yet lame. Itchy yet shiok. Hate yet love.

2010-08-03T20:07:00.001+08:00

I did not went to school today & i actually misses it. Perhaps it's friends that im missing.

Anw i went to the doctor today not because im sick but because of the skin allergic that i am having. Doctor told me that i cant wear perfume, i cant wear any stainless steel items be it necklace, etc. I cant use body shampoo with any fragrance (as in perfume kind of body shampoo). He advised me to use Baby Johnson Body Shampoo. And im excuse for PE for 6 weeks as i cannot perspire too much if not i will feel very itchy.

I hate this kind of skin i have but i cant do anything as it's in my genes. Hmmm..

Tomorrow im going to school and i know Nana misses me.. Awwww :D.. AND AND AND i got CCA duty tomorrow, hai !.. hmm..

Confused :|

2010-07-31T16:14:00.000+08:00

Hasnt been updating my blog for the past few days as im really quite busy, espcially on the week days. School is really been very tired for me but the joy that i had with Nana somehow makes my day felt better. Im glad i know her. She is a great friend, i must say..

Shall update about the things that had happened for the past few days...

On thrus, i went to watch movie with Fahmi. We watched "The Crazies". And i swear it was my first time i saw a guy jerk watching a movie & it was my first time i scream in the cinema.. There was some sudden scene which actually gave me a fright. After all, it's damn hilarious. I cant forget how he actually jerk !! FUNNNYYY!!!

And i went to meet up with him yesterday. :D .. Monyet !!!

A hug for you means I need you. A kiss for you means I love you. A call for you means I'm missing you.

2010-07-27T19:16:00.000+08:00

The shoes above is nice right?? HAHA! Hanif Buddy is buying that for me as he owe me presents.. IM DAMN HAPPY CAN !! I cant wait to have that shoes. It just soo nice.. Thanks Hanif Buddy :D ..

School was alright today but i kept on yawning all the way for all the lessons as it's all theory lesson. But for the Body Massage Lesson (BDM), it wasnt that bored & i did learn stuffs. We were taught about The Skeletal System which was interesting :D ...

And last but not least, the best part is that school ended early today as PM1 is cancelled. & as for tomorrow, there is only practical lesson & it ends at 1pm. How shag? .. Kinda dont feel like going. But for Nana, im going. :D ...

Before i end this post, imma gonna share a funny short story..

"There is this guy who actually woke up(in the morning) & he was hungry plus he was very blur.

He went to open the fridge & looked for food after which he actually left his phone inside the fridge which he thought he lost his phone. His mother actually found it. "

Damn stupid but funny right?? I seriously cant stop laughing when he told me this. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA! :D

Some people believe that holding on and hanging in there are signs of strength. However, there are times in life in which it takes much more strength to just let go.

2010-07-19T23:45:00.000+08:00

Love that we can not have is the one that last the longest, hurts the deepest and feels the strongest.

2010-07-17T20:37:00.000+08:00

I HAD MY TRAGUS PIERCED yesterday! Like finally !!! Anw went to had lunch with PeiRong yesterday after school. After that i went to meet HuiZhu & Lynn outside WRSS. PeiRong is nice accompany me to wait but actually not that nice cause i waited for him for 15mins in the morning but due to some emergency i went off first.

Had a nice chat with HuiZhu & Lynn after that HuiTing came after that. Went back home at around 7plus.

Today i went to meet up with Lynn. Went to Old Woodlands first before we headed to Woodlands Waterfront. :D..

True friends are like angels. They are precious and rare, and false friends are like leaves, found everywhere.

2010-07-10T16:13:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wondered "What is LOVE?" Well, to me Love is knowing all of his flaws but still wanna be with him more then anyone else. Love is trusting him enough to tell him everything about yourself including the things that you are very ashamed of. Love is when you felt so safe & comfortable with his presence. Love is when the whole world is against him but still you will stand by him. Love is when you will trust him no matter what had happened. That the love definition of mine between boy & girl..
But as for the love being Family, it is much more different. It's the most powerful love among all. & this love will never stop or end. Here is an example of a love from a Father.

When i was still a few months old, my Mum abandoned my family. My Father who doesnt know how to look after kids, took care of my sister & i . He played a role of both a Father & Mother. He work hard to earn money as a father & at the same time he would always bring us out to play like a mother. No matter how tired he is when he came back home from work, he would never fail to play with us before we headed to bed. He is really a wonderful Dad. I remembered once i broke a bowl and at that very moment, my Dad just reach home from work. So he saw everything. I cried when i saw him as i thought my Dad is gonna scold me as it was not the first time i break bowls or plates but instead he rushed into the Kitchen and asked if im hurt.
When i was nine, my Dad remarried. So i got a Step-Mother. To be frank, i used to detest her until last year the start of September which was when my only natural sister was chased out of the house due to some matters.
As my sister was the only one i always turn to if i have any problems or anything, but she wasnt there by my side anymore. So naturally i turn to my Mum.
You must be wondering why didnt i turn to my Dad right? Well is simply because when my Dad got remarried, he leave everything to my current Mum. Everything as in taking care of us, teaching us & all. So from there on, my Dad & I kinda drifted apart so we never had a heart to heart talk before. Not even a hug because i find it weird & im kinda shy.

Anw back to when i stopped....

So i turned to Mum & told her many things. That is when i started to realised she is not that bad as i thought after all. She really did treated my sister & i as her real daughter and not just some step-daughters. But as for me, i didnt really treated her as my Mum. I treated her as my step-mother. I felt so guilty.
So now my Mum & I are close. I tell her everything that had happened everyday & i shared with her my problems. She is the only mother i will have.

And one thing that is really weird is that i never hated my natural Mum. Till now i still cant figure out why. hmmm..

Wow, i kinda actually ended up sharing about my life rather then about LOVE. :D

When I am with you, I wish I could stop time so I could spend forever with you and never have to leave your company.

2010-07-07T22:29:00.000+08:00

I SERIOUSLY MISS THIS GIRL UP THERE (though i just saw her just now).. She is really a great friend i might say. I will never fail to laugh whenever she's there. We tend to behave very "crazily" which therefore makes us the "CRAZYSISTER" .. To many people, she may seems so happy & all on the outside. But actually deep down, she is not. She is actually quite emotional at times which she do not show it to others. She can be a pig! Sleeping till so late. No matter how many calls, it still cant wake her up. She loves KFC! Cause whenever we are out, i always noticed that she would always wanna go KFC either for lunch or dinner. I miss the times when i always go under some void deck with her to lepak. It was fun. She knows many of my secrets, & i know hers. She loves me, i love her. HAHAA.. CHEY CHEY! :D ...

All i want to say is that, please dont find things to pick on her. Come'on la! How old are you guys already? 17 right? Act & be mature. This is not the way a seventeen year old lady should behave. Im not gonna say much anymore. & to you, please wake up! Look at the facts & truth first before you assume it. Alright? I hope you will open your eyes big enough. That's all i need to say.

WOW! I guess this post is dedicated to FAZILAH :D.. HAHAHA..

Anw, i met Fazilah, Syafa & her friend for dinner at Burger King just now. Had a great chat with them.. LOVE THEM TTM! :D

After which we go went separate ways. Syafa left with her friend while me & Fazilah went to the RC nearby our blk to slack :D

Life is about trusting your feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, learning from the past, and realizing people change

2010-07-06T20:07:00.000+08:00

Havent been updating my blog this few days as i was kinda busy..

Anw, on Sat. I went for the NDP 2010 Rehearsal. THIS YEAR NDP IS VERY BORING! SERIOUSLY! But this year's NDP bag is the nicest among the rest of the NDP bags. Sezairi, Sylvia, Taufik Batisak was there singing. So it wasnt so bad after all..

On the Sunday, i went to Jurong Point with my Family & Mum threw my green vans cause she said it's worn out. But i like that Vans Shoe really much.. Anw she did bought me a new Sandals to replace the Vans. But still, I WANT MY VANS! Guess im gonna buy it myself. :D

As for Monday, i went to find Fazilah, Joanna, Atiqah & Syafa. We went to Atiqah's house as they need to complete their SS project. They finished it at around 3. After which Fazilah & I went to slack around at CWP till 7.. I had fun with her!!! :D

AND TODAY, SCHOOL REOPENS! It was kinda weird to start school again but i got to see my friends, so that was the best thing. Lesson are seriously bored today! But there will be few projects awaiting for us this term. I think it's gonna be a very busy term.

New module & everything! I REALLY GOT TO WORK REALLY HARD! I do not wanna be lag behind. :D.

AND AND AND i showed my friends my arm & their reaction was like "eeee" .. My arm seriously look very ugly.. I REALLY WANT IT TO GO AWAY QUICKLY!!!

And lastly not forgetting that i saw Megan today on my way back home.. What a coincidence! :D

2010-07-02T19:43:00.002+08:00

Labels : No matter how much we like and care for a person, if we are uncertain of our position, there will come a time when the only certain thing to do is GIVE UP...

BLOOD DONATION DRIVE WAS AWESOME! I did donated blood & the best thing is that I AM THE FIRST FEMALE STUDENT THAT HAD SUCCESSFULLY DONATED BLOOD! How cool was that??!! Many girls was rejected mainly is because their veins are too small ... As for myself, i did not successfully donated a pack of blood due to my dizziness & the donating got to stop immediately. Well, dizzy is due to low blood & maybe is also because this is my first time donating & my body is still not used to donating yet (that's what the doctor told me). When i was feeling very dizzy, the nurse made me lie down so as to allow my blood to flow back to my brain. & the dizziness feeling is really something that i had not experience before. It's like as if im gonna faint anytime. The feeling aint that good. Seriously!

I have already removed the bandage & mine really look so different from the rest man. Mine is not just one red dot there & i have bruises. It's pain when i atually press it. & i cant really bend my arm that long cause it hurts. But still, im contented cause i finally know how it's like to donating blood.

But what cool about it, is that I GOT TO SEE MY MOST OF MY FRIENDS! That is the best thing :D....

2010-07-01T20:53:00.000+08:00

Labels : Thinking of you is easy - I do it every day. Missing you is the heartache, that never goes away.

GUESS WHAT??!! TOMORROW IS FRIDAY! WHICH MEANS IM GONNA DONATE BLOOD TMRW! Im so excited man !!! Mum says that im crazy. Im gonna donate blood & yet im so excited about it. HAHAHAHA! Cause im special. I gets excited for the strange & weird stuffs. &&&&&&&&&& there is another thing that really makes my day yesterday. AND THAT IS BABY IS GONNA HAVE HIS HOMELEAVE! But still unsure when it's gonna be. Well, im really very excited & happy about it cause i finally got to see him once again & not wait for another 3more months. I dont mind if i only got to see him for a lil while or not. I just wanna see his face ! I miss him so damn much !! This time we got to take many nice pics together because we only took 3 pics together before he went in.
& on Saturday, it's my 5 Month Anniversary with him. This is another thing that im happy about. So much of happy stuffs this few days !! I love life (felt so suddenly cause i always think that life really sucks ttm) ..

Lastly i heard from Catherine that school shall starts on Tuesday cause Miss Tan will not be in school on that day so lessons are cancelled. But details are still not really sure yet. Miss Tan will soon send a msg so dont worry about it first, girls ! :D ....

2010-06-30T16:59:00.000+08:00

Labels : Beauty is not that which you were born, but the real beauty of character based on human values.

Well, i like/love the picture above very much cause that is what i does in the past. Stupid right? I know they are doing so fine with their life & that they had already move on so quickly. But for me, i was still stuck at the past which i know it's not gonna re-start anew again. Maybe i still stop doing it in the future anymore as what it stated, "viewing this profile will only renew your misery and anguish".

And one last thing that really kinda piss me off ! I sometimes really wonder why a blind man can be able to see the beauty that is within one person, but not those who are not blind at all?! SUCKS TTM!

2010-06-29T16:52:00.003+08:00

Labels : MAY HIM REST IN PEACE CAUSE GOD WILL TAKE GOOD CARE OF HIM FROM THIS MOMENT ONWARDS..

First & foremost, I wanna wish Syafawati (the girl on the right hand side of the pic above) a HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAYY! At first i didnt really know that we can be sucha great friends. Thanks for everything you had done for me since the first day we know each other. Thanks for the joy, the laughter, the consoled that you gave me &&& everything. THANKS ALOT! & i really miss youu. Shall see you on Friday! :D.

I just got back home not long ago from the Funeral. Went to send off my Grand-Uncle. Most of them were crying when his body was sent to burn but i did not shed a tears. Not because im being heartless or what so ever, it is just that im not that close to him & that i only seen him once in 1 or 2 years. But still i wish that he can rest in peace as i know he is really a very nice guy. What i know about him is that, he is very cheerful & funny. He's friendly & he jokes around. God is gonna take good care of him now. He's gonna be fine & happy wherever he is..

After sending him off, we went back to where the funeral was held and had our lunch there as food is already prepared. It was really yummmy :D !

I dont know why but i suddenly misses you so much && i keep thinking about you. I shed a few tears on the way back home. I started thinking about all the time we had spent together before you went in. It had already been 139 days that i had not see your face. Many people are amazed at how long i have already waited for you. 4 months! It had already been 4 months & i still need to wait for another 4 more months before you are a freeman. And i guess that is the power of love. & besides i have already gave you my promise that i will wait for you so i really got to keep that promise because i know you hate empty promises.
Few more days & it will be our 5th Monthsary. Im looking forward to it though i know i will be spending it alone. Last but not least, i love you. I really do :)

2010-06-28T17:15:00.000+08:00

Labels : Dance like no one's watching, sing like no one's listening, love like you'll never get hurt, and live like it's heaven on Earth!

IM BACK HOME! Went over to Noraaa Pendek's house just now & had lunch at her house. I swear, her Mum is a great cook. All my fav malay food! &&& one thing i like the most is that it is SPICY! YUMMMY! I want more next time :D .....

TAGS ARE REPLIED!

> NoraaaPendek : HEY no problem alright! Anw just give me a call or text me. I will be there for you no matter what :D.. SAYA ALSO CINTA KAU! <3 P/S : I LOVE THE FOOD YOUR MUM COOKED JUST NOW!

> ZY : IM NOT SCARED! *stick out tongue* .. HAHAHAHAHHA!! Wah! That time say i cute, now change alrd. Bt nvm la cause the emotions are really cuter than me .. hehehehe/

2010-06-27T18:30:00.000+08:00

Labels : I know that we are 2000 miles away from each other, but the feelings in my heart for you will never change, even if you go farther than that. You will be in my heart forever.

Gonna stay at home today again cause my Mum is going to my Grand Uncle's funeral & i got to babysit my younger siblings..

Well, most of my friends are starting school tmrw bt im still left with one more week before school reopens &&& i cant wait for that ! ....

I seriously love those emotions! SOO COOL! .. HAHAHHAHAHAH!!!

LASTLY! THERE IS ONE THING IM VERY EXCITED! && that is DONATING BLOOD! I cant wait for this coming friday for the Blood Donation Drive organised by SCEPTRE(my last year form class) ....

Anyway, if any of your guys wanna donate blood, you can come down to Woodlands Ring Secondary School this coming Friday(12pm-530pm) or Saturday(9am-2pm) ...

2010-06-26T17:14:00.002+08:00

Labels : What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.

Facebook is slow today & i really hates it! This always happen on the weekends which SUCK TTM! _|_ . So while waiting for it to finish loading, i might as well blog ....

Alright, one more week of holidays before school reopens & im really excited for it. I MISS MY LOVELY FRIENDS! Nana, Mira, Ziela, Lala, Zuura, Ella, Camie & Shamu. Cant wait to see those wonderful girls :D. I miss hanging out with them !! <3 ....
Anw the last week of holiday & im packed with stuffs. IM EXCITED! But what i really look forward to is FRIDAY! Because im gonna DONATE MY BLOOD! How brave am i?! WAHAHAHAH!! I CANR WAIT!! WHOOO! LOL! Im getting crazy over it -.- .......

&&&&& something happened yesterday. My Grand Uncle who had cancer had died ystd. God is so unfair! God should had given him few months to live. He is sucha nice guy!

Last but not least! Thanks to Michelle babe, i have all this cool & cute emotions :) ...

I LOVE THE FLY EMOTION THE BEST!!!!

TAGS ARE REPLIED!

> Nadila : Hi prettty ! Thanks for the tag :D

> Noraaa : WHAT PENDEK??!! We are almost the same height seyh! HAHAHAH! I've been fine, what about you? & what about you & halim? Still strong? ;) .. I MISSS YOUU TOOOO MINAH!!
> ZY : HAHAHAHHAHAHHA!!! :)

> abigail : HELLLO HELLLO!! <3

> Sally : Thanks mummmy :D ... HAHAHAHA! Seee ya soooon tooo =)

2010-06-25T13:59:00.000+08:00

Labels : Life and love are like hide and seek. People spend their whole lives looking for love, but when they finally forget to look for it, they eventually find it.

Yesterday i had dinner with Fionn at CWP. Had a little chat with her ;D ... Hugged her before we both went to separate ways. Hugging her for the first time was kinda weird plus this is our first time meeting up together. ;)

2010-06-24T13:59:00.001+08:00

HOW I WISH I HAVE THIS KIND OF PERFECT BOYFRIEND!

2010-06-24T13:49:00.001+08:00

Labels : Every person you meet along the way, touches your life in a special way.

RESULTS IS OUT TODAY & I GOT A 2.8 GPA ! Disappointed enough !!! I WANT AT LEAST A 3GPA! STUPID STUPID! GOT TO WORK HARD FOR THE NEXT 6 MONTHS! & i cant wait for school to reopens. Im still left with 1 more week of holiday...

&&& IM GONNA DONATE BLOOD ON THE 2nd JULY! THIS COMING FRIDAYY!! Im going back to WRSS ! IM SO EXCITED!! WHOOOOO!! Finally i can donate blood. :D

TAGS ARE REPLIED!

> ZY : YEAHH!! AGREEED! It's FUN!! HAHAHAHAA :B

> Halim : :D

> Sally : OKAY! No worries... Take care tooo mummy <3

> MichelleCHUA : Thanks for the tag babe ;) ... YESS! It was yummmy! Bt i was abit hard.. HAHAHA..

> Jinping : YUPP! DAMN SWEEET!! :)

2010-06-23T21:28:00.000+08:00

Girl: Babe I dont think I can sleep.
Boy: Why baby?
Girl: I don't know. I need your boring voice to put me to sleep. Wanna tell me a story? Hehehe.
Boy: Hahah, you're lucky that you're cute. How about I read you Dear John.
Girl: Sounds perfect.
- Boy reads Dear John-
- 15 minutes later-
Girl: *snores*
Boy: Babe?
Girl: *snores*
Boy: Hahah, you always knock out within 15 minutes. Your snores are cute. Babe, I really love you. I really do. Sometimes I might show that I dont give a fuck. But I do. I never want to lose you. I know it's cheesy, but this is how I feel. This is REAL. I know I'm not the best thing out there, but I'm trying to be one of your best ever. Thank you babe, thank you for choosing a messed up guy like me to be your boyfriend. Thank you for being mine. I honestly can't see myself with anyone else but you babe. I know I say I love you too many times, but each time I say it, my feeling grows more & more for you. Thanks for listening babe. I'll still be on the phone if you need anything. Goodnight babe & sweet dreams. I won't let the bed bugs bite you.

2010-06-23T17:40:00.000+08:00

Labels : Money and love aren't the same thing. The more you spend money, the less you have, the more you spend love, the more you get in return

I was sick yesterday. I was down with a slight fever, cough & flu. But now, my fever is gone (HAPPPY) ... I want my cough & flu to go away fast! I hate it. :( .

IM SOOO HUNGRYY NOWW!! Tummyy is making so much noise. Im craving for Baby's pasta. IM MISSSING IT SOO MUCHH!! Anw i think i shall cook maggi later ;) ..

I got nothing to blog about alrd. But im gonna post the pic of the cookies & the fruit tarts that i baked for Father's Day ...

The Fruit Tarts wasnt nice as what i expected :(

The coookies was nice( that what my father says. But i made a different one for him. The one i made is shaped " I ♥ U " ...

2010-06-21T19:49:00.000+08:00

Labels : Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad, because I miss you, I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss.

GUESS WHAT?! I didnt work today nor im gonna work. Screw that boss that interviewed me! He overlooked my age. To be a casier, i need to be 18 but im not. FUCK! & the boss was on leave today. Wasted my time. I would have slept longer. & they even wasted my time to waited for the boss to returned the call. In the end, i was asked to go back first. But well, they did called me but i rejected. Anw, im just left with 2 more weeks so i might as well not work & just enjoyed myself. Isnt it? HAHAHA!

Plurk is so quiet today & im so bored. There is nothing for me do. & i dont know why i suddenly have the urge to go cycling. Weird uhk. HAHAHAH =) .....

TAGS ARE REPLIED!

> Halim : See when. You let me know kay? HAHAHA! Whadeva ehkk.. URGHHH!!! SHOW OFFF!

> ZY : Yeahh. Facts. You just got to admit uhkk.. HAHAHAHAHA :P

> Sally : OKAYY! I wont! THANKS BABE <3

2010-06-20T23:11:00.000+08:00

Labels : Distance doesn't matter if you really love the person, what matters most is your honesty and trust for that relationship to work out.

HEY HEY HEY! Im back home. Went CWP with family to catch Karate Kid. It is indeed a nice show. It's funny too ;D. Really enjoyed watching it =) ...

Im starting work tomorrow & im exicted & afraid. I hope i can do a good job. Wish me good luck ;D

TAGS ARE REPLIED!

> abigail : THANKS BABE ;D

> Megan : HELLO HELLLO PRETTY! LOVE YA TOOO <3

> Halim : Serious? Wow!!! Rich kan! LOL ... ;D

> REGINAAAAA : HEY HEY HEY!! Thanks for your awesome tag! LOVE YA TOOO ;)...

> ZY : Bt it's the facts man! I didnt blame you :P ...

> MichelleCHUA : YEAAHH! It was fun! I want more next time. HAHAHAHA =) .

> Jinping : Yeahh. Your right ;) .. Same here. I got no guts to tell him i love him. Im shy toooo. HAHAHAHA ;D

2010-06-20T17:06:00.000+08:00

Labels : Dad, you're someone to look up to no matter how tall I've grown.

A HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TOO ALL FATHERS!

I shall blog more when im back. :D

2010-06-19T17:34:00.000+08:00

Labels : Laying in my bed, rethinking those thoughts that are running through my head. loving every moment i'm around you. its just like a wonderful fairytale come true..

I went to CWP today alone & shop. This is my time time doing it & i find it rather peaceful. I like it cause im all alone with no one beside me talking & all. I can rest my mind at the same time. Weird though cause i never enjoyed going out alone before. & on my way home, i saw Joanna. What a coincidence. HAHAHA ;D

Well, tomorrow is Father's Day & i just got to know that from HweeTeng. Wonder what should i get for my father?
Sometimes i really envy my friends as they are so close with their father. Im not saying that my dad isnt nice or anything. He is a great dad but he doesnt really know how to show his love . What i meant is that, the way he showed his love is very different. Seeing him only sleeping for less then 4hrs everyday really hurts me. He is working his ass for us. Taking two jobs is seriously not easy. I really wanna to give him the best i can. So i really must study really hard for my daddy. To be frank, i think i had never ever tell my dad that " I Love Him". In cards maybe not never from my mouth. I cant remembered if i ever said that to him when i was still a child, but the moment im grown up to be a lady or when i starts to be more sensible, i had never ever tell him "I LOVE HIM". Surprise uhk. I wanted to but i dont dare. Weird!

Anw i think i shall cook for my dad tomorrow. That will be his father's day gift.

2010-06-18T15:43:00.001+08:00

Labels : Give more love and you’ll get more love

Rotting at home today i guess? I've been sleeping very late this past few days. Slept as late as 6am. Wondering what was i doing up so late uhk. Well, i've been watching Korean Drama. Im done with watching "Delightful Girl" & "Green Rose". Iris will be on my next list of Korean Drama ;D ... Gonna spent today & the whole of my weekend to finished watching it. I hope i can be able to finish it. ;)

Erm, i start work on Monday along with Xue Ting && im kinda afraid. I hope i will not make any mistakes. I hope i can do a good job. *praying hard* ...

Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end

TAGS ARE REPLIED!

> ZY : LOL! Seee! I got influenced by you. YOUR FAULT! HAHAHAHA ;D

> abigail : HELLLO PRETTTY ;D

> Halim : YEAHH! I told you before whad tat i want a tattoo.. LOL!... So jealous cuz you alrd had one :( .

> Sally : Yeaa.. No, i wont regret. I knw you dont like me to have tattoo. But i've been wanting it since sec 3 le. Please kay? =)

2010-06-18T04:46:00.000+08:00

Labels : I dont know what to blog about. So im blogging about love poems that i found online ;)

Love is the greatest feeling, Love is like a play, Love is what I feel for you,

Each and every day, Love is like a smile, Love is like a song, Love is a great emotion,
That keeps us going strong, I love you with my heart, My body and my soul,
I love the way I keep loving, Like a love I can't control,
So remember when your eyes meet mine, I love you with all my heart,
And I have poured my entire soul into you, Right from the very start.
By samar

If you ask for a fish I’ll bring you the ocean, If you ask for a flower I’ll bring you the garden, If you ask for a cloud I’ll bring you the sky , If you ask for a star I’ll bring you the universe, If you ask for a giggle I give you a , smile, If you ask for a finger I‘ll give you my hand, If you ask for a horse I’ll bring you the herd, If you ask for some sand I’ll bring the beach , If you’re asking for my heart, to late, it’s already yours.
By Carlos Sotolongo

Time now is already 0446am. I think im going to bed already. NIGHTS ;D

2010-06-16T19:39:00.001+08:00

HAPPPY SWEET 17TH BIRTHDAY TOH XUE TING! :D

2010-06-16T19:14:00.000+08:00

Labels : Give me 10 minutes and i'll write you a poem , give me an hour and i'll write you a story ,
give me a life time and i'll show u my loving , till now and forever you are my glory.

I want to have a tattoo some day. I want one on my feet and one on my ankle. Shall wait till i finish my study at ITE before having one. I had been craving for tattoo since sec 3. && i cant wait to have one. ;D ...

TAGS ARE REPLIED!

>Megan : HELLOO! I LOVE YOU TOOO <3

>Reginaaaaa : HELLLO BEAUTIFUL! Thanks for the tag ;D

>Von : Hi. Thanks =) ..

>firdaus : Okay. Will link you up ;)

>ZY : It's manner mah. This shows that i have good manners. HAHAHAH =) ..

>Halim : :D

2010-06-15T16:24:00.000+08:00

Labels : There is no safety-net to protect against attraction.

Dont the shoes above look nice? I seriously like it. I WANNT! But i got no money $$$ now. But no worry. Cause i have already found job. Cashier at Cold Storage. But Xue Ting maybe is not working with me. How sad?! Hai. One bad news is that i start work on the Mon. This means i cant go for the outing with my primary school friends. But i believe there will still be a chance :D...
Anw i saw XuiLing & Bing Xuan at CWP. What a coincidence!! =)

I didnt update my blog yesterday simply because im busy watching Korean Drama online. I went to CWP with my mum ystd in the afternoon. Bought so many chocolates & sweets. Reached home & i started watching the Korean Drama all the way to 3plus in the morning. Had been sleeping so late this past few days && my eyebag will sooon become darker & darker. :( ..

Im gonna find another Korean Drama to watch but this time i pray i wont cry. Had been crying watching the previous drama & my eyes turn swollen. GOSHH! ......

Guess im gonna stop here. I got no idea what else to blog anymore =)..

TAGS ARE REPLIED!

> Jinping : Yeaahh! So true. I reallly like it a lot =) ..

> MichelleCHUA : Me want it so badly. There are sales everywhere && there are many things i wanna buy ;D

> ZY : LOL! OKAYY! THANKS SOO MUCHH! ;) ....

> Halim : Alrights ;D

2010-06-13T15:35:00.005+08:00

Labels : There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved.

Dont the nails above look so pretty & cute. LOL! I wonder when will i be able to paint a nails like that. It really takes a lot skills, patience & practice in order to be able to paint sucha nice nails like that. It might be easy to paint our own nails by our ourself. But it is not easy to paint for others. It's really very different. & it will take a slightly longer time to complete when you're a starter. How i know this? Cause that is what im doing for manicure practical lesson.

Alright enough of the nails things. HAHAHAHAH! :D ..

Before i start blogging, i wanna wish JasminTay a HAPPY SWEEET 16TH BIRTHDAYY!! (L)...

Hmm.. Well, it's raining so heavily outside now. & it is super windy. I think that this holiday it will be raining. But i hope it wont ! Let's pray. HAHAHAH! LOL! ...
Anw tomorrow is Ziela's birthday & im so sorry that i cant go with them to celebrate her birthday. But still i wanna wish her an ADVANCE 17TH BIRTHDAYY!! && i miss you so much seyh. I miss my ite cliques. I miss the fun & laughter & the skipping lessons(opps) tooo. ;D...
&&&&& wed is Xue Ting's birthday celebration. & WHAT A PITY! Im not going tooo! SIMPLY BECAUSE IM BROKE! NO $$$ ! THAT IS WHY IM LOOKING FOR A JOB NOW! Anyone got any job lobang?? I seriously needa work... I NEED MONEYYY!!! $) ...

Last but not least.. I love the note below. It is sooo true. I got that from Jinping's blog... & i really like it a lot.

TAGS ARE REPLIED!

>ZY : LOL! Is bcuz i let you win.. -.- HAHAHAHAH!!.. Okayy. THANKS SOO MUCHHH :D.....
>MichelleCHUA : HAHA! YEAHHH!! IT WORKS!;D..HAHAHAHAHA!
>Halim : Okayyy!! Suree. I got many stuffs tat i wanna tell you tooo.=)
>JASMINTAY : HELLLLO BEAUTIFULL!!;)HAPPPPYY BIRTHDAYYY!;D HAHAHA.. This is the fourth time im wishing you alrd. .. && thanks so much for the concern.. XIE XIE NI! (L) ..
>Megan : HAHA! Im not vuglar :( ... WHOOO!! IZZIT?? GOOOD GOOOD =) .. YEAHHH!(rock) LEE HONG KI IS THE BESTT! OMGG! SOOO CUTEEE :D ...
>HT : YEAHH!;D I WANT I WANT!!!! Finallyy can donate blood le..WHOO! (dance) ;) HAHAHAH....

2010-06-11T19:23:00.004+08:00

Labels : FUCKFUCKFUCK!

Doesnt it sounds so true? Though the "F" word keeps repeating but with the "F" word, it makes it sounded so define. Isnt it? I thought so. ;D...

Anw, i was at home the whole day as i needa babysit my sister. Erm sort of "babysitting" cause my mum is out to settle some stuffs as im moving house by this month. Should i feel happy about it? I dont even know. But one thing i know for sure is that things will get better when my family moved. Life is gonna get better & great. I believe that =) ...

GOSH! I WANNA LOSE WEIGHT . Im not fat neither im thin. BUT STILL, i wanna lose weight. Actually im already starting to do. Here are some tips on how to lose weight..

#1 . Eat half of what you normally consume everyday.

#2. Eat less on food that has carbohydrate. Example, rice .. [Eat less rice but eat more meat].

#3. Drink pure lime juice every morning. But remember not to drink with an empty stomach. [You might want to squeeze the lime and make it into ice cube. Every morning just take two cubes & add water. & you can drink already but take note : It wont taste nice cause it's PURE lime. It will taste very sour. ]
Reason why you drink lime is because it act as a natural diuretics and it's refreshing taste makes the water go down much more easier.

#4 : Eat more lower sodium food. When you take more lower sodium food, your body will tend to store less excess water. It will cut down on diet & the sodas will cut your sodium intake significantly.

#5 : Do some exercise. Choose exercises that works the areas of your body needs to lose weight. P/S : Dont do jogging. If you wanna jog, then you must make sure you dont stop jogging. Once you stop jogging, the muscles that you had developed (which is previously your fats), will turn back into fats again. Which means that all the efforts had gone to waste.

Basically i've been doing Tip #1, #2 & #3 & i can tell you that it do works. I have already lost 1kg. ;D..

.......................

Well. I didnt see you in cyper world that often anymore ever since that incident had happened. Wondering what's the reason...

TAGS ARE REPLIED!

>Roxanne : Thanks so much babe

>ZY : Kay la Kay la. Not bhb la. LOL! HEHES .. Okay.. THANKS SOOO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING!!!!

>Halim : HAHAHA! Ya. It had been long.. Alrights. Then we shall meet up sooon ...

>Sally : AIYO! Youu uhk. Ask so many qns. HAHA. Thanks for the concern ehk but im feeling better alrd. Alrights. Will call you up sooon & tell what had happen.

2010-06-10T17:30:00.003+08:00

Labels : What are friends? Friends are people that you think are your friends. But they're really your enemies, with secret identities and disguises, to hide their true colors. So just when you think you're close enough to them, they wanna come back and cut your throat when you ain't lookin

I JUST FINISHED COOKING! Just simple dishes. Vegetables & seaweed chicken. & THE SMELL IS MAKING SO HUNGRYY!!! HEHEHS!

I went to meet up with HuiZhu just now. After that Lynn & HuiTing came tooo. It had been quite a long time ever since we meet up. But we are still missing out of XiuLing. Hmmm.. Anw, i told HuiZhu about everything that had happened. We had quite a talk about it. After which we just sat down at Mac, chit-chatting. & we actually talk about the past. Awwww! It's so memorable. Memories that are so wonderful, funny, crazy, etc. I kinda miss it. It was so fun & enjoyable then...
How i wish time would slow down & bring me back to year 2009 but obviously i know that aint gonna happen. Imagine if time machine was invented. How great will that be?! But still everyone got to keep looking forward in life. There is no point turning back nor looking back. We ought to keep looking forward in everything we do. New adventure might awaits us. Who knows if we might be able to meet some wonderful or happy things. ;D ...

I WANNA DONATE BLOOD WHEN MR BEN ORGANISED THE BLOOD DONATION DRIVE AGAIN!!! HEHEHE!

Pee/Ass : BABY CLARENCE JUST CALLED ME! IM SO FREAKING HAPPY!!!

TAGS ARE REPLIED!

>Halim : & of cuz i knw you knw. It had been so long ehk! HAHAHA.. Fight? How come? Aiyooo. OKAY! IM GLAD IT'S GONNA BE FINE!! YOURR WELCOMEE!!! ;D
>Sally : AWWWWW!!! (L) ... LOVED! <3
>ZY : BHB LA! LOL!. ADMIT!! :@ ... Anw thanks so much. Alrights ;) Take Care toooo ;D

2010-06-09T01:32:00.000+08:00

Labels : CONFESSIONS!

I really cant imagine that our 4 & a half years of friendship just go down like that. I didnt expect all this to happen. I NEVER! & I really cant imagine that you could actually say those kind of things about me behind my back. Everything is so clear now & you are denying it. This isnt the first time it's happening already. How do you expect me to believe you? All evidence are against you. You can deny all you want & say your conscience is clear, but only you yourself know what you had said. You said im a bigmouth! FUCK! Things that you had told me, i didnt tell anyone. Who you liked, did i tell anyone?! NO! I DIDNT! & you call me a bigmouth! THANKS A LOT! What's so great about talking behind people's back?! I really dont understand. I mean when you are so close with one person, you could actually talk things behind that person back. What is this?! I was seriously damn fucking hot when i heard stuffs that i do not wanna hear. I WAS DUMB! Many people are telling me to stop getting close with you, but i did not listen. This is what i get. I was really disappointed. I really treated you as one of my closest friend. Telling you all my secrets & stuffs. I WAS STUPID ENOUGH! I have awaken. I've learned my lesson. But this doesnt mean that i did not enjoy myself when im with you. As what you said, we joked, we play & we laughed. All these are & will be wonderful memories. Conclusion, i think ending our friendship will be the best solution to everything. I really doesnt want to have anymore conflicts with you. Let's just put an end to it. Thanks for everything though. I wont forget about everything. Goodluck & all the best for your future ahead. :D

2010-06-08T20:41:00.001+08:00

Labels : Friendship is delicate as a glass, once broken it can be fixed but there will always be cracks.

Im thinking about food again. But dont you think that it looks soo YUMMY! MY mouth feel like munching again. GOSH GOSHH!! CONTROL! ;D... Alright back to serious stuffs. NO MORE FOODD! HEHEHES ;D...

Went to school today for the scholarship interview. SERIOUSLY, i dont think it went so well. She asked me many questions that i dont know how to answer. But still i hope i can get it.

WELL! I guess you doesnt know what is happening.. But i think soon you will know. I have known you for so long. I really treated as one of my best friend but turns out that is how you treated me. THANKS A LOT! WELL DONE! YOU WIN! I really thought you had changed. No matter how others told me to stop seeing you, i did not listen to them.. NOW I HAVE FINALLY WAKE UP! THANKS FOR EVERYTHING! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH ALREADY! I WILL NOT REPEAT THE SAME MISTAKE FOR THE 3RD TIME! IM PUTTING AN END TO IT!THANKS FOR BEING MY FRIEND ONCE!